Warning: Negativity Ahead

So, I guess this won’t be the most positive entry, but I’m feeling sort of frustrated.

My job really isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. They don’t have a lot for me to do, so I end up spending tons of time sitting around doing nothing, surfing facebook and waiting for friends to sign on AIM. There’s nothing worse than sitting around doing nothing, especially when I could be doing that nothing at home. Instead, I wake up early and get home after dark, and it generally feels like it was for nothing. Furthermore, my boss doesn’t seem to like me all that much, and I feel like even when I do get jobs lately, there’s circumstances genuinely out of control that make it difficult to impossible to get jobs done.

For an example of many of the reasons I’m frustrated all wrapped into one: I was asked to make a copy of a show from Spring Break, so I did – figuring out the process of getting the tape on my own, because my boss often asks me to just do something without seeming to remember that I’m new. So anyway, there was only one tape available to make a copy of, and it said it was 30 minutes long, so I took it out and had the copy made. Today my boss told me I’d only done the one-minute promo, and I needed to redo it. So I went back to the database and looked for it, and that which I was asked to make a copy of was unavailable. I told my boss this, and she told me to keep looking, and to always exhaust every option before coming to her. So I called the database people, and explained the situation, and they said I’d done all I could and it wasn’t available. I told my boss this, too, and she told me she’d follow up with the producers in a disbelieving voice, and that was that.

Anyway, that’s actually a lot of action for me. Today’s clearly been busy, because I’ve been here for 5 hours and I’ve already done two whole small jobs. So now I’m chilling at my desk, doing nothing except talking to Rose online and updating this blog, while my boss and the other head of the department talk in the office with the door closed. Cool. I’ll just wait here until they need me to run to Sharper Image to buy a new clock for them.

I think, though, that the reason I'm mostly frustrated is that I'm lonely. I'm the only intern in my department, so all this down time means pretty much twiddling my thumbs. Since my boss seems as though she really doesn't want to be bothered, I don't really talk to her... and that's everyone I get to be around. It's not much better being home, though, because nobody's talking to me there, either.

I’m really looking forward to September.