Eeyore

I don't know how many people still check the blog. But I don't feel like calling anyone, or sending a mass email, so here goes.

My 92 year old grandmother is in the hospital. She had pneumonia, and even though the antibiotics seem to be working, she is so weak she can't raise a glass of water to drink. My family is flying out tomorrow to see her.

Today I went to work feeling as though an invisible blanket of thick fog had settled over my head and shoulders. It's a little bit harder to breath. It's a little bit harder to think. There is a pressure behind my eyes that I would say were tears only my cheeks are dry. I can feel my heart beat.

It's not like things have been good for a while. She's been in assisted living for the past several years, and we've had to have someone come in to take care of her every day. She's going deaf but is too proud to wear hearing aids. Sometimes she remembers who I am and sometimes she calls me Amy. She can't walk without help, and she's spent most of her time in bed, sleeping or watching TV or something in-between. And all of this I hear from my Uncle, because we stopped our yearly visits a while ago.

I know she isn't the grandmother I remember. She hasn't been that person in a long time. The house she lived in and that my father grew up in was torn down and replaced with one of those multi-million dollar homes years ago. I'm sad to not have visited her more, but those visits to see her dazed and weak were sadder. There is no silver lining to this cloud, only the inevitable. And the waiting.

Happy Valentines Day!

On this bright and sunny (and cold) Valentines day, I just wanted to say how much I love and miss you all...
Our amazing theme parties
The way going out to dinner as a group was a production involving 5 cars and many phone calls
Laying/Playing out on the Green together
Sending out Valentines to everyone (Drew thinking he didn't get one because he didn't check his mail all week)
The way everyone was always in everyone else's business (ok ok, so I don't really miss that...)

Point is, I'm thinking of you all. Picture this with Disney Princesses on it and a Hershey Kiss attached.

Happy Valentines Day!

Love,
Amanda (too)

das ist pfundig!

Hey all. I realized I've been quite out of touch with most of you lately.... so I thought I'd do the quick bullet point fill in, and hope that you all do the same, as it gets lonely here, and i want to know what you all are doing!!!! But life is good, I finish my first semester with a final next friday!!! Heading to Morocco the week after... but a recap:

-family visited over xmas. went to istanbul
-saw amanda in prague for new years
-best friend from home visited: fun times, went to amsterdam, drank beer
-actually passed my midterm. barely. worst grade i've ever gotten on an important test
-i have a 2 month break starting feb. 8th
-i'm learning bayrisch (bavarian) it's great.
-i miss mexican food. always.

and if you got this far, here is a most fantastic article... oh deutschland: http://www.spiegel.de/international/zeitgeist/0,1518,532260,00.html

love rose