So so lonely...

I think my feelings lately are best expressed by an away message I put up the day after I left Conn for the summer when I was home alone for the day because both my parents had work and my sister school (though I told her to skip)... I am HOME!!! its great but very very weird...where are my plant girlies, rose, sasha, amanders, and molly, down the hall from my room filling the hall with laughter and have made me one of them? where is seb who helps guide me through the problems in my life, making it all better, while teaching me the art of contra? where is drew who would play the occasional game of mario bros 3 with me and discuss life, always being able to show me another view that i would have never thought of at all? where is seth who always knows how to make me smile with something goofy that he does while freely giving out hugs?where is amada, one of my bestest of friends, who makes her stops every now and again and borrows my cloths and is my partner in crime when it comes to handstands and cartwheels?WHERE THE HELL IS RACH!?!where is my friend mate, my best friend, my everything?..guess this is something i will get use to but I miss you all...now after i had that up Rach thought it was semi sad but i dont really see it that way. I thought of it all makes me really happy. Every time I've left Conn for a break of some sort I've been happy to leave, wanting to get away from a place where I felt as if i didnt belong. But for the first time ever I was upset to leave all my friends and teared up in the car because I had to leave you all because you are all such good friends to me and I was so happy to find you all. Thank you. So thats how I felt this past week at home. Okay, enough mushy stuff. So i have officially done jack shit since I got home. I've unpacked, made some jewelry, and thats about it. But I start work next week so im gonna enjoy my last week of couch potato glory. On the upside, I'm up to date on all my favorite tv shows (im a tv junkie)...if you watched the gilmore season finale, i guess this would be for mollie, god wasnt it good?!? I really hope luke says yes and I have to say that rory is an idiot. grrrr.okay, getting too worked up over a tv show, over something that isnt real, hahaha...oh amanda, keep the dream book for now as something to remember me by. I have another one and my dreams have been good lately so its less needed. I think my bed as well as being under no stress cleared that problem right up. Well I've written alot for one posting and its getting late. I'm hoping to go skating in the morning tomorrow. I will be the first time in 2 months!!! I'm so excited. hope to talk to you all soon!!